A new journal, new place, same situation?

--Private Entry--
I thought they all knew already, I'm sure someone's even reading this but I need to write, I guess.

Might as well put on a show. I guess... I guess and I think and I wonder and I hope and it's all I do and it's driving me crazy. I thought they all knew. Maybe they did, maybe it's all a show, all of us.
At least Drew and Cheryl are here, both unharmed for the most part, I think we all have more damage than we let on. I'm so tired. I just want to stop now, okay? I just want to go somewhere normal, if there is such a place. Being in a town full of people from both sides of the cameras isn't normal by a long shot. I think by this point I'd have a death wish if I wasn't afraid of the pain. Should have just kept it to myself until things settled.